true story

attention: attention seeking-scandalously clad-lowly standard-skanks.

You might want to consider the fact that your home-cut mini-skirt and shorts are too short when half of the fabric of your pockets is protruding past the hem of this disgusting garment. You might as well just cut the pocket too because i doubt that you will utilize the use of this commodity. Furthermore, how on earth do you perform simple daily functions such as sitting, walking, and oh gee i dont know, breathing in this attire?

Thank you,

Kelsea Park

a friend recently returned from a mission. so much can occur in a year and a half span and yet it seemed that so little time had passed. Something was there that had lay dormant for a short time and re-awakened as lives were once again united. all those trivial events that had occurred in her absence seemed to fade as they were replaced with matters of true importance. Relationships are an interesting phenomena, almost like living organisms that need to be fed and nourished but seeing their potential for endurance gave me hope for some of my more valuable relationships that have been put on hold for a time.

i have a problem. I disappear. After a time, i tend to blend into those around me. My substance, my soul, my personality slowly seeps into the background leaving this hollow form of matter. I hate when i disappear. I know its happening, and i don't know how to stop it. I can have such a vibrant personality and be so involved and vivacious when i am in appearance.. however i lose myself as i dissolve in disappearance.

general conference. there's nothing like it.

missythoughtszupas

im not going to lie. missy higgins is pretty much my all time favorite. i am in love with her and her music.

today i was asked a question. What do you want in life? and sadly i couldnt really find the answer. sure i could come up with little traditional answers but of course the real kelsea needs to answer these questions with something phenomonal, from the heart, meaningful. and i couldnt find it. im going to be thinking about this because i thought i knew what i really wanted. and i do. but there is more to it. this isnt really making sense sorry. tawny i love ya :)

zupas makes me so happy

:)

1. classic skating= one swell experience

2. grrr every once and a while this certain thing occurs and it makes me really frustrated but i hate that i get mad because its not that big of a deal and im sure i do it to other people too.. its still hurts though

camp connect

last Thursday i embarked on a remarkable journey. destination: Texas. I was a team member/counselor on the staff for the great Nancy Thomas' Camp Connect. Not only was it an honor to meet and be taught by her but i got to work alongside her at this extraordinary camp. I dont even have a clue where to begin to paint a picture of what this camp is about. basically families come with their children who have Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD). Many of these children suffer other disparities such as Oppositional Defiant Disorder, ADD, ADHD, Turrets Syndrome, Bipolar Disorder, Autism, and FAS (Fetal Alcohol Syndrome). These families came to learn how to parent these children with a strict structure and discipline that Nancy Thomas has developed which works miracles with these kids. The main goal is to create a bond or attachment between the parent and the child which most often has been adopted with many other contributing factors to their RAD such as maltreatment, abuse, neglect, etc.. Over all i made many wonderful friends and it was an exsquisite, extremely difficult, rewarding, heat-warming, heart-wrenching experience that is one of the greatest things i have ever done. I learned so much and it was remarkable to guide these children and parents and to watch the growth and progress that they made. Some of these mothers face such a daunting, trying, overwhelming burden and it was an honor to be with them. It was a very humbling week. I got back on Saturday night and it was so hard to leave these wonderful people. I am full of gratitude for what these relationships, encounters, and experiences gave me.
Because of my training and experience at this camp i am now a trained and qualified respit provider which is so wonderful and i now have a few positions over the summer which was a blessing and answer to prayer. My father in heaven is so mindful of me and all of his children and it is so wonderful to see his hand at work in all of our lives.

these dont need words :) haha

i forgave you even in the moment that you hurt me.
i kept making excuses for your short comings
all along i knew how this would end
and yet i dared to hope and try to change its course
i thought that at this moment i would be more heartbroken
but im mostly disappointed in myself and what i painted you to be
i know its wrong to question what made you leave
but i cant help thinking it was me

today i was thinking about my friendships throughout my life and how each one has given me something special and helped me along the way. I really tried not to miss anyone as i went chronologically, but its very likely. thank you for your friendship.


Kyler McQuin
Rachel Lewis
Kaitlyn Thomas (Alyson Tucker, Rachel Herrmann)
Madelaine Graves
Emily Julian, Regan Bailey, Rachel Bradley
Rachel Herrmann
Katelyn Graham
Logan Wilding, Jesse Williams, Ryan Cope, Ryan Graham, John Melville
Lauren Ricks, Mindy Robins, Tawny Christensen, Staisha Stratton, Jennica Ostler
Bree Woostenhulme, Mckenzie Lambright
Kendel Murray
Tawny Christensen
Jaime Lyons
Whitney Bunker
Gavin Telford, Anna Harward
Tawny Christensen

today was a magnificent, beautiful sunny day. i thoroughly enjoyed it.

second guessing second chances
reading too much into glances
all the lefts I could right
will never ever change that night
lend an ear to my plight
im loosing ground in this fight
the path of least resistance is resisting me
in spite of open arms I long to run and flee
...set me free
beating, fleeing, so deceiving
that heart of mine is unbelieving
its far beyond your detection
hidden beneath my introspection......

Friendship

Thank you Kendel for being my friend when i needed it. thank you for listening. thank you for speaking. True friendship comes natural and whenever you are in each others presence you are fortified, strengthened, and blessed.
Thank you Tawny. words cant even begin to express my gratitude for your friendship and what you've done for me and what you've helped me become.

Three words: Mary Ellen Edmunds
wow there are three women in the world that are my ultimate examples/heroes and Mary Ellen/Mellon/Mee is definitely one of them. She is the funniest happiest most gracious, strongest, most spiritual, most remarkable woman. I am so lucky to know her and she made my valentines day the greatest most unforgettable valentines day ever. i love her. i am so grateful for her. if you dont know who she is, not only is she an excellent writer and speaker but she has been on the relief society general board and she has served like 8 missions and is extremely involved in teaching at the mtc. i love her so much and words cannot express how glad i am to have her in my life.

this cant be love. it hurts too much

Jewel had it right. THESE FOOLISH GAMES!!!

who told my heart and my brain to stop communicating with me?

something good. something great. not sure if i trust it. i want it. i want it the right way. not sure if i deserve it. is it real? too scared to find out. but i need to know.

...this made sense to me.

In my humanities class we were supposed to think of our favorite work of art. After a while I realized that one of my favorite pieces is "A veiled Vestal Virgin" by Raffaelle Monti. This sculpture is extremely beautiful and the craftsmanship never ceases to amaze and inspire me.