missythoughtszupas

im not going to lie. missy higgins is pretty much my all time favorite. i am in love with her and her music.

today i was asked a question. What do you want in life? and sadly i couldnt really find the answer. sure i could come up with little traditional answers but of course the real kelsea needs to answer these questions with something phenomonal, from the heart, meaningful. and i couldnt find it. im going to be thinking about this because i thought i knew what i really wanted. and i do. but there is more to it. this isnt really making sense sorry. tawny i love ya :)

zupas makes me so happy

:)

1. classic skating= one swell experience

2. grrr every once and a while this certain thing occurs and it makes me really frustrated but i hate that i get mad because its not that big of a deal and im sure i do it to other people too.. its still hurts though

camp connect

last Thursday i embarked on a remarkable journey. destination: Texas. I was a team member/counselor on the staff for the great Nancy Thomas' Camp Connect. Not only was it an honor to meet and be taught by her but i got to work alongside her at this extraordinary camp. I dont even have a clue where to begin to paint a picture of what this camp is about. basically families come with their children who have Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD). Many of these children suffer other disparities such as Oppositional Defiant Disorder, ADD, ADHD, Turrets Syndrome, Bipolar Disorder, Autism, and FAS (Fetal Alcohol Syndrome). These families came to learn how to parent these children with a strict structure and discipline that Nancy Thomas has developed which works miracles with these kids. The main goal is to create a bond or attachment between the parent and the child which most often has been adopted with many other contributing factors to their RAD such as maltreatment, abuse, neglect, etc.. Over all i made many wonderful friends and it was an exsquisite, extremely difficult, rewarding, heat-warming, heart-wrenching experience that is one of the greatest things i have ever done. I learned so much and it was remarkable to guide these children and parents and to watch the growth and progress that they made. Some of these mothers face such a daunting, trying, overwhelming burden and it was an honor to be with them. It was a very humbling week. I got back on Saturday night and it was so hard to leave these wonderful people. I am full of gratitude for what these relationships, encounters, and experiences gave me.
Because of my training and experience at this camp i am now a trained and qualified respit provider which is so wonderful and i now have a few positions over the summer which was a blessing and answer to prayer. My father in heaven is so mindful of me and all of his children and it is so wonderful to see his hand at work in all of our lives.

these dont need words :) haha

i forgave you even in the moment that you hurt me.
i kept making excuses for your short comings
all along i knew how this would end
and yet i dared to hope and try to change its course
i thought that at this moment i would be more heartbroken
but im mostly disappointed in myself and what i painted you to be
i know its wrong to question what made you leave
but i cant help thinking it was me